Total Comfort

This has been one of those days where you just wish you could go to sleep and try it over again... Hayden and I have not felt well the past couple days so our nights are long with waking up every couple hours... Then we were up WAY too early... Before the sun and birds were up... So mommy got hardly any sleep and then forced to get up before the birds do... Well Skylar woke up just a short time after us because Hayden wont stop crying. Like I said we have not been feeling well( colds or allergies) This was like 6:30 am. Well both kids cried all through breakfast and into mid morning when I finally put Hayden down for his usual mid-morning nap. He falls asleep and there is peace for a sort while until Skylar decides she wants cry and whine about any little thing. At this point I have already lost my temper 100 times and I am not being the caring, loving parent I so desperately want to be. Skylar cries until Hayden wakes up and they both cry through lunch. After lunch we are all on the love-seat attempting to have "cuddle" time when mommy gets punched in the face, then kicked, then hair pulled then smashed in the face by a misplaced curtain rod(was in the couch cushions) Again I lose my temper.... I put the kids down on the floor and I make them go away and play. Skylar complies while Hayden just stands by me holding my arm and rubbing his cheek on my arm crying...( Hayden loves skin to skin contact, even more so when he does not feel well) Now Skylar is whining again, but not at me... She has curled her self on the couch with a blanket, pillow, and teddy saying, so quietly I could barely hear her, "I'm scared, I'm scared" I asked her what the matter was and she told me there were monsters and they were going to get her... Well I told her to get up and come see me and I told her that Jesus was here and we were safe and those monsters could not and will not hurt us...

The rest of the afternoon was so peaceful and calm... The kids went down for their naps without a single cry... Dinner was pleasent and bed time came and went with no major meltdowns... Only after hanging up cloths and thinking to myself did I realize what happened today....

Not one time all morning did I pray... give glory to God for anything... nor ask Him to guide us and protect us this day... But the moment that sentence left my mouth to comfort Skylar a total peace came over us... When I realized this I cried... Did Skylar see daemons in our house? She told me they were pink, blue, and green... I have no real words to describe the overwhelming emotions that have come over me. Fear Not, God is With Us... God is with us so no one can stand against us...

I have been a little down the past few days, with just not feeling well, house work backed up from not feeling well... Aaron gone... This was the revival I needed and was looking for. To God be the Glory in all we do!!!