Tuesday, July 24, 2012

First Trimester Coping: Letting Go

     This will be the first if three or so post related to coping during the first trimester. These post are not necessarily going to be about treating morning sickness and fatigue, but rather getting through it when it is happening. I hope these suggestions help you if you are in this season of life.

     As I sit here in the rocking chair in the playroom at 9:30 in the morning I am thinking how I would really like to be sleeping again. The fatigue is unreal! The kids are a bound of energy and making a trail of toys behind them. There is about 10 loads of laundry sitting folded on the love seat needing to be put away. But you know what, I am ok with that... But I find it very difficult. 

     Cleanliness is something I strive for. I cannot stand to see things in ciaos. It wears me down and greatly depresses me. But in these past few weeks I have come to an understanding with myself that this is only for a season and soon I will have the energy back to get my house back in order. Learning to let go is a hard lesson for a lot of us. 
     Most of us struggle to let go of things like worry or a negative feeling. They trap us in the box of anxiety. I dont want to go through this whole pregnancy surrounded by anxiety. I am letting go of a spotless floor, all the laundry put away, a stray dirty dish or so, and etc. I am giving them to Jesus, he will know when and how they will get done. Those little things are not going to bring the house down.

Letting go is difficult at times, but by just reminding myself that it is only for a season things seem a little easier. I hope this helps other moms let go of the really not so important things in life and lay them at the feet of Jesus. 

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Where I have been

     Its been a while, a long while since I last posted and for that I am truly sorry. I guess you can say I had a blog block. I have several topics to blog on, but the words and motivation have eluded me. 

     I've been down and tired. Mostly from the pregnancy but also my spirit has been down. Because of illness and vacation we have been out of church for a long time and that effects me greatly. Because of morning sickness the house has taken a major blow and that also effects my spirit as well. I feel helpless. I know that I am not, my husband has been a tremendous help, but I still feel out of sorts. 

     There is a tiredness I cannot shake... no matter how much sleep... this tiredness causes my head to hurt and my mood to swing. I have tried many times to write a blog only to stare at the screen in complete exhaustion. I pray it will get better in the coming weeks. 

     When I am feeling up to it I will be writing a book review, a few post on coping during the first trimester, and sharing what homeschool curriculum we will be using this year. I hope you will bare with me and stick around. Until then can you, will you, pray for me? Thank you.